i am in the process of putting my life back together.

it still hurts. i have been having trouble finding the right words for things lately, so odds are i just need a little time to get my thoughts straightened out.

i will get back to posting photos more regularly very soon.
apologies for the lengthy sabbatical
and thank you for the kind words.

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dear so and so,

good luck with your life from here on out. i hope that you can find peace in your heart.

i hope that you are happy with the last conversation you wanted to have with me, about money you want me to pay you.

i hope you do decide to get therapy in the future.

au revior simone has my heart.

what is there left to say?

i'm on my own again.

i'm exactly where i was one year ago. it's heart breaking really; so much love to lose, so much fight in me just defused.

all the little things add up don't they? they add up to a great deal in fact.

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now i know,

everything does happen for a reason.

if it weren't for a breaking heart, there would be no empty space, or the need to fill it.

i can't help but recall a conversation i had once about him. over tea i told my sister how my heart changes everyday. everyday i get a fraction of a millimeter happier and also a fraction of a millimeter sadder. not to say that they could cancel each other out. no. not at all. the fact that i got a little happier today doesn't change the fact that i also became a little sadder. every day i become a little bit more of both, which means that right now, at this exact moment i'm the happiest and saddest i've ever been in my life.

why, she asked me.

because, nothing makes me happier and nothing makes me sadder than him.

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