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now i know,

everything does happen for a reason.

if it weren't for a breaking heart, there would be no empty space, or the need to fill it.

i can't help but recall a conversation i had once about him. over tea i told my sister how my heart changes everyday. everyday i get a fraction of a millimeter happier and also a fraction of a millimeter sadder. not to say that they could cancel each other out. no. not at all. the fact that i got a little happier today doesn't change the fact that i also became a little sadder. every day i become a little bit more of both, which means that right now, at this exact moment i'm the happiest and saddest i've ever been in my life.

why, she asked me.

because, nothing makes me happier and nothing makes me sadder than him.

Lomo Fisheye.