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today i sat outside in the sun by myself.

i watched a woodpecker hollow out a limb from the oak tree above my head.

i chewed every single finger nail down to it's nub.

i thought a lot about the way things are in my life and how what used to be so simple for me, is now complicated.

the truth is, things are pretty difficult right now. i feel lost and sad. the one person i've invested my heart in doesn't know if we are right together. hearing those words are crippling, mainly because i've never considered them. i wouldn't be living with him if i had.

Yashica A Model. 120 Film. 6x6.