vow

recently i have been seeking solitude. not to be confused as disinterested or withdrawn, i just have been longing for a little peace to think. for quite some time i have treasured those simple moments alone, lying on my bed, staring up at the ceiling, letting my thoughts run together in a harmonious symphony of sounds and images, inspiring ideas and dreams soon to be manifested in real life, and then who knows... maybe even captured on film.

today my thoughts have been on the big move coming up, which i must admit, are exciting and scary wrapped up together in what feels like a wild, heart-racing, cliff jump. 

never in my life have i made such a leap for a man that i love, and yet never in my life have i loved a man so much as i do b. when i look at him i see my lover, my partner in crime, my closest advisor, my best friend, and the keeper of my deepest, most desired, hopes and dreams.

isn't it true, that with every great adventure there is a degree of uncertainty lying beneath the surface of our smiles? isn't it the human condition to fear the great unknown? and yet, by exploring the uncharted we in-turn conquer our fears.

so many of my thoughts lead me to feel a little scared about this, but even more, so much of my heart tells me i'm ready - ready for our next great adventure together.

Yashica A Model. 6x6 120vc Kodak Film. Light Chasing.