summer in the fields 2

when i took this polaroid i wasn't sure if it would come out at all. between the low light (sunset) and the windiness of the day i was sure it would either be too dark or blurred. boy was i wrong. this is one of my all time favorite polaroids i've ever taken.

i hope that doesn't make me sound pretentious. i absolutely hate the idea of being arrogant. that air of ostentation... (which i see often in other photographers and music friends) is completely unbecoming and in my opinion, is completely counter creative.

there is this group of photographers i know of.. their work is really wonderful and very inspirational. they go on "photo trips" together and then document them on flickr. it's really a great idea, not completely original, but still very interesting. the only down-side to all of this is how acutely clique-ish they are. it's almost as if you aren't in their nerd-out group then you don't matter.

i personally don't give a shit about artistic ego's or the little nitch groups photographers identify themselves with. i just enjoy good art. unfortunately i have begun to enjoy it less and less as i see more and more self proclaimers.

there is this broken social scene song that i adore, and in the song kevin drew sings "never fall in love with what you make". i fully believe in this theory, although he is more than likely referring to something else...

sometimes i feel as though i can never be satisfied with what i make. i am always worried that my polaroid's are too typical - and typical equates to stagnancy which is defined as dull and lifeless, and any art that is lifeless... well... it's just gross.

i think i will always be somewhat unhappy with my art, and perhaps this means i am always demanding progress in myself. BUT what i hope for, even more so than artistic improvement, is to never ever EVER be full of unwarranted pride. i hope to always be humble, and caring, and filled with the desire to learn from others, and to keep pushing for a shared creative commons.