b and i are moving in together.

we found an amazing old house downtown literally a walk away from my work.

it has worn out wooden floors and 100s of windows, and a fire place too!

this is a huge step for me. HUGE.

once a girl, who was too afraid to say "i love you", is now one half of a couple moving into one fantastic home. 

Yashica A Model. 6x6 120vc Kodak Film.

winter gate

we shall not cease from exploration
and the end of all our exploring
will be to arrive where we started
and know the place for the first time
through the unknown, remembered gate
when the last of earth left to discover
is that which was the beginning

t.s. elliot

when you've wanted something for so long, and it suddenly becomes your reality, it is no longer a new beginning, but a manifested truth.

i am approaching a realized dream and with every single step i am more shore that i've felt this before. content. certain. peaceful.

Yashica A Model. 6x6 120vc Kodak Film. Low Light.

the polaroid tree

my christmas holiday was spent crammed inside a tiny, two bedroom lodge with 8 of my closest family members. b and i rotated every night from one bed to the next, sometimes we were lucky enough to score the pull out couch, or else we were doomed to the slowly deflating air matress. our lodge was located way up in the heavenly rockies at winter park mountain. every single day it snowed nearly 10 inches. i'd wake up to the stirring sounds of life in the kitchen - shuffeling feet, brewing coffee and sizzling bacon.

my younger brother and sister were set on the idea of a christmas tree, so they went out into the forest and attempted to cut down a snowy pine... the only problem was, since our lodge failed to have the proper rustic amenities like hatchets and ax's, they had to use a kitchen knife. somehow, in that miraculous kind of kid way, they managed to cut down the perfect christmas tree.

we decorated it with popcorn and real cranberries. i made that fancy foil tree topper and of course no christmas tree is complete without a polaroid of each one of us.

so there you have it! the polaroid tree.

Nikon D80. 

there is a pleasure in the pathless woods,

there is a rapture on the lonely shore,

there is society, where none intrudes,

by the deep sea, and music in its roar:

i love not man the less, but nature more,

from these our interviews, in which I steal

from all I may be, or have been before,

to mingle with the Universe, and feel

what i can never express, yet can not all conceal.

~lord byron

this poem found me last night, two glasses of wine in the belly, and under my covers. it excited me, reminding me of my experiences with nature in solitude - the joy of seeing the earth's face in a new light, the hopes of visiting it's mysterious terrains, and the thrill of exploring plummiting deapths and comforting burrows.

durring my walks in colorado i saw the earth asleep, in a quiet white slumber. i walked down roads and paths leaving a trail that was soon covered by freshly fallen snow. i stood as still as i could in the vast whiteness, under towering pines - naked as a skeleton, and i was careful to not make a move, but my stiltedness was no match for the frozen nature that surrounded me. it moved me. i wanted to know this feeling forever, so i took 1000 pictures of everything i could see...

and still it wasn't enough.

Yashica A Model. 6x6 120vc Kodak Film. Low Light - Heavy Snow.

starting over

if you have followed your way to this blog through the photos on my flickr site, then you are probably aware that i recently deleted everything on my flickr, everything except for this one photo.

yes... all 954 photos... gone.

there isn't a grand explanation of why. it's just sort of a feeling i've had for a while.

it's time to start over.

time to follow after newer ideas and dreams.

it's the beginning of everything for me all over again.

it's exciting and refreshing and to be honest incredibly relieving to not have to look at all of those photos from the past.

there is so much white blankness to fill in, and to inspire with color, shadows, and light.

2009. the year of new beginnings. hear i come.

Yashica A Model. 6x6 120vc Kodak Film. Backlight.